...I'm dejected is because Michael has silent reflux. This means he gets really bad heartburn, particularly after a feed. This in turn means A. LOT. OF. CRYING. So it's not really all that silent - it's just called that because there's no spewing.
He screams so much Adam and I can't hear each other talking, so there's a lot of shouting at each other just to communicate. Fun.
It means I have to wear Michael in the sling for a large part of the day, to keep him upright, which minimises the reflux (and therefore the screaming). Yesterday I think I had him on for at least 5 hours. Did I mention he weighs 5.5kg now?
This makes it hard to get anything done, particularly housework. I can't ignore the housework any more than I already am, because we won't have clean clothes or dishes, or food.
It makes it hard to look after Hamish.
It's very tiring.
But it is manageable - once I adjust my expectations and approach.
I'm getting there, and it will be ok, but today I'm still getting used to the idea, and feeling dejected.
PS We have seen a doctor and are trying some medication so with luck it won't be a long term issue.
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